I'm not going to recap, basically Julien is a walking, talking todd almost 2! If you're a mother you know how that is.
My dream is to be a SAHM and care for Julien through his fits, tantrums, and laughs. I want to see him playing in the dirt, gardening and discovering new words. I want to be there for his first peanut butter and jelly, to clean his face before naptime, I want to see him...all day.
I'm working at a roofing company at the reception desk where you would assume the most traffic is and my days are still so lonely without my JuBug by my side. I cope with convincing them to buy a coffee machine so I can have unlimited caffeine to make my day go by faster, I find tedious paperwork to fill my time until the clock strikes 3:30, I zoom (65mph) through the traffic down 635, then 35, then loop 12, untl i hit a dead stop on 408, dare I take grady niblo's back road with speed humps to race to my Juj? Yes..Yes I do.
I've made it, he's either sound asleep and could care less if i'm there or he's distracted with Sabba. But..I don't care if he cares if i'm there or not..I care that i get to see him and watch him play, watch him do his hustle to the fridge for moi moi, I care that I don't miss the WHOLE afternoon and can see his sleepy head after a nap, I care that even tho he's acting too cool for school he probably pee'd in his diaper when he saw me.
My wish to be SAHM, it seems like such a long ways away, there needs to be a way for me to get out of this rut and live happily ever after with my Bug.
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*SAHM (stay at home mom). Inspired by @hellogiggles
Friday, April 20, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Ch ch ch changes (turn and face the strain)
Changes
Changed
Change
Changing..
OH life.
Hunter and I have settled into our jobs new positions, promotions, raises..
We have bought our first car and the next step was to move out of my parents house.
I have lived there for 11 years, I have lived with my parents my entire life, I was NOT ready for this change.
We did the math, the budget, the thoughtful process to see how much we could afford. We were off to apartment hunt.
A lot of thought and prayer went into this decision, we spoke with our marriage counselors, prayed with the community, prayed as a small family and ultimately Hunter and I felt complete peace about this move.
We found an apartment 3 miles from my parents house, 2 bed 1 bath, and 1000+ sq ft.
It's wonderful.
We moved in 2/4/12 and it was bitter sweet. I cried the first 3 days, Julien was having a really hard time transitioning from a house FULL of people to a small apartment with just his Ima and Abba, it was heartbreaking.
When Hunter and I got married there was a severance between my parents and I and I remember sobbing, feeling like I was being ripped away from my parents who have covered me, provided for me, loved me and comforted me, all to be with the man God so eagerly placed in my life. It was joyous time as Hunter and I were beginning our lives together but a sad transition.
Moving into our own place just established that transition even more, not as brutal because I had already gone through the spiritual side of it but sad none the less.
My mom helped us move in and unpack but we didn't see my dad for 3 days, (sat-tues) by Monday Julien had lost it! he wasn't sleeping, he was constantly crying, throwing himself on the floor in little fits, dragging himself across the floor :( we HAD to see Sabba!!
Tuesday he spent all day with my Dad and they played and played by Wednesday morning he was a new kid! He was going to his OWN bed when i said it was time for nap or night night, get under the covers and lay his head down and say night night. Since we have lived in the apartment he has had 3 nights (separately) where he has slept ALL night!
This is a BIG deal! That 1 day with Sabba changed EVERYTHING!
We have settled in, had our housewarming party and are loving life! God is so good to provide! My parents still get to see Julien EVERY day (but maybe saturday)!!
Changed
Change
Changing..
OH life.
Hunter and I have settled into our jobs new positions, promotions, raises..
We have bought our first car and the next step was to move out of my parents house.
I have lived there for 11 years, I have lived with my parents my entire life, I was NOT ready for this change.
We did the math, the budget, the thoughtful process to see how much we could afford. We were off to apartment hunt.
A lot of thought and prayer went into this decision, we spoke with our marriage counselors, prayed with the community, prayed as a small family and ultimately Hunter and I felt complete peace about this move.
We found an apartment 3 miles from my parents house, 2 bed 1 bath, and 1000+ sq ft.
It's wonderful.
We moved in 2/4/12 and it was bitter sweet. I cried the first 3 days, Julien was having a really hard time transitioning from a house FULL of people to a small apartment with just his Ima and Abba, it was heartbreaking.
When Hunter and I got married there was a severance between my parents and I and I remember sobbing, feeling like I was being ripped away from my parents who have covered me, provided for me, loved me and comforted me, all to be with the man God so eagerly placed in my life. It was joyous time as Hunter and I were beginning our lives together but a sad transition.
Moving into our own place just established that transition even more, not as brutal because I had already gone through the spiritual side of it but sad none the less.
My mom helped us move in and unpack but we didn't see my dad for 3 days, (sat-tues) by Monday Julien had lost it! he wasn't sleeping, he was constantly crying, throwing himself on the floor in little fits, dragging himself across the floor :( we HAD to see Sabba!!
Tuesday he spent all day with my Dad and they played and played by Wednesday morning he was a new kid! He was going to his OWN bed when i said it was time for nap or night night, get under the covers and lay his head down and say night night. Since we have lived in the apartment he has had 3 nights (separately) where he has slept ALL night!
This is a BIG deal! That 1 day with Sabba changed EVERYTHING!
We have settled in, had our housewarming party and are loving life! God is so good to provide! My parents still get to see Julien EVERY day (but maybe saturday)!!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Sleep I think I will go back to Sleep. -Imogen Heap
To start the weaning/transition to another bed thing takes guts.
I approached this 'slightly' early according to babycenter.com and multiple blogs I've read.
But, I was ready to sleep through the night and have more than a corner of my queen size bed back!
I started this about a week and half ago trying to figure out what 'method' would work best for me.
I started with laying with him in his bed until he fell asleep and I would sneak off. But low and behold 2 hours later he was up, then another 2 hours, then another and another until about 6am and he would wake up officially at 9:30am.
So I was in desperate need of another method. I read a blog by bigpreg.wordpress.com and I was inspired. I talked Hunter into waking up with Julien in the night instead of me!
After a few more days of me being exhausted and going back and forth between beds (mine and juliens) I had enough. Monday night was the night Hunter was taking over!
But unfortunately men don't have motherly instinct like women do, every time Julien woke up with his soft whimper I would pop up out of bed and then remember "it's not my night" so then I had to wake up Hunter. That happened twice until He realized "I'm not going to sleep tonight". By 8am Tuesday he was getting ready for work, exhausted and CRANKY. I just smiled and said 'welcome to my life, I can do it from now on if it's too hard."
Tuesday night came and Julien had an unexpected late nap so when he woke up at 7:30pm for dinner I had to keep him up a little later, but by 10:30 it was DEFINITELY time for bed. This had happened a few times before thinking if I keep him up late maybe he'll sleep through! But no such luck. So I wasn't anticipating a full nights sleep.
It was my night to wake up with Julien, I was geared up and made an easy path from my bed to his so I wouldn't step on any unsuspected toys. I fell asleep around 11:30 expecting to wake up by 12:30am to feed him one last time. But....the next thing I knew it was 6:23am!!!!!
I looked at Hunter (whose alarm went off for morning worship) and whispered "oh my gosh, he slept through the whole night. I'm so freaking excited!!!!!". We then attended morning worship in our living room and Julien didn't wake up until 8:15!!!!!!!
He was starving and my breast were about to pop so he enjoyed a nice full breakfast from both sides and I am probably the happiest mother right now.
I hope, I PRAY this lasts!! It was officially my FIRST FULL night of sleep in 14 MONTHS!
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Dog, Car, JuJu and Ball.
What do these ^ words have in common? Julien has said them!!
There are times I wonder 'will he ever?' when it comes to different things. Standing, walking, talking, different things. And I'm having to realize all kids are different and Julien might not be as developed as the next kid in certain things!
He is an AWESOME listener, He can definitely understand me giving him directions.
On his FIRST Birthday he said Car and Dog!! We caught him saying Car on tape! It's so exciting! During peek-a-boo the other day no one said 'where's juju?!" So He said it himself! He said "nah JuJu!!" I was so excited I about screamed in his ear! Haha.
Today while rolling the ball around he crawled towards it and said Ball. SO clearly!
His Auntie ShooShoo (xaundelle) thinks it's hilarious that when he says words he says it SO clearly she thinks he's like stewie (from family guy). He says words like he's known them forever it's amazing.
To watch him grow right in front of me and change so much every day is so exciting!
Anyways.
Thanks to everyone for helping us celebrate Julien's birthday! We are so excited about our little ONE YEAR OLD!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Facebook Generation
I am apart of a generation that has to tell everyone they know (or cyberly* know) what they are doing at all times. What they believe, their frustrations, their political views are all exposed on 1 website for thousands to read.
I would have no problem with this except for when I see my 'christian' friends slander those who don't share same beliefs, and call people worthless, leftovers, say 'they are taking up room'. This burdens me.
I worry that my child is going to grow up in an even more technological world where people slander even their brothers and sisters for a single disagreement. I don't want his peers to rob his innocence, heart for God, and goodness, I want him to always stand for justice and righteousness!
I hope my son is filled even now with such a love for the homeless, immigrants, muslims, budhists, prostitutes, drug addicts, christians, 'leftovers'. I hope he is filled with the Glory of God even now as a baby that when these people see him, Gods love is pouring out of his smile into them. I pray that he will NEVER judge people without the love of God, he won't even joke about those that have less, but instead extend grace, mercy and love.
My Generation makes me so sick, the things they say about people that aren't like them, or the crude jokes they make. I want to be apart of a righteous generation, abandoned to the Lord, beckoning the bride-groom and preparing themselves for such a day.
Proverbs 4:23-25
23 Watch over your heart with all diligence,
For from it flow the springs of life.
24 Put away from you a deceitful mouth
And put devious speech far from you.
25 Let your eyes look directly ahead
And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you
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I must edit myself. I don't justmean my generation ages 15-30. There are quite a few 40+ yr olds I know on facebook that I am ashamed to be friends with when they post some status', If anything they should be our examples encouraging, loving, and compassionate towards others specially those that are lost.
Put others before yourself, love others more then yourself, and try not to be so dang selfish. People are people, they all have feelings and God desires them no matter what their current religion, sexual orientation, or race that they are He loves them and wants them to be apart of his Bride.
I would have no problem with this except for when I see my 'christian' friends slander those who don't share same beliefs, and call people worthless, leftovers, say 'they are taking up room'. This burdens me.
I worry that my child is going to grow up in an even more technological world where people slander even their brothers and sisters for a single disagreement. I don't want his peers to rob his innocence, heart for God, and goodness, I want him to always stand for justice and righteousness!
I hope my son is filled even now with such a love for the homeless, immigrants, muslims, budhists, prostitutes, drug addicts, christians, 'leftovers'. I hope he is filled with the Glory of God even now as a baby that when these people see him, Gods love is pouring out of his smile into them. I pray that he will NEVER judge people without the love of God, he won't even joke about those that have less, but instead extend grace, mercy and love.
My Generation makes me so sick, the things they say about people that aren't like them, or the crude jokes they make. I want to be apart of a righteous generation, abandoned to the Lord, beckoning the bride-groom and preparing themselves for such a day.
Proverbs 4:23-25
23 Watch over your heart with all diligence,
For from it flow the springs of life.
24 Put away from you a deceitful mouth
And put devious speech far from you.
25 Let your eyes look directly ahead
And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you
--
I must edit myself. I don't justmean my generation ages 15-30. There are quite a few 40+ yr olds I know on facebook that I am ashamed to be friends with when they post some status', If anything they should be our examples encouraging, loving, and compassionate towards others specially those that are lost.
Put others before yourself, love others more then yourself, and try not to be so dang selfish. People are people, they all have feelings and God desires them no matter what their current religion, sexual orientation, or race that they are He loves them and wants them to be apart of his Bride.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Birthday Wish List
It's been so long since I've posted!
Lets see...Julien has 7 teeth now, He hasn't started saying MUCH but occasionally he slips Ima or Abba (mom and dad in Hebrew).
He is getting so big!
His 1st birthday is coming up and during our busy schedule Julien and I got together to talk about his birthday wish list!! Here are just a few items he would LOVE to have!
Bruin Drum of Instruments
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4107312
OR
*Little Tikes Tap-A-Tune drum
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2464963
--
Fisher-Price Laugh and Learn Learning Workbench
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3783164
OR
Lamaze My First Toolbox
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4209195
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We will soon (hopefully) be purchasing a toddler bed for Julien. We could really use some Toddler bed rails such as these !
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4008512&prodFindSrc=search
We would also love one of these! For safety in the tub
Skip Hop Moby Bath Spout Cover
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3611463
We also need a Toddler Car seat, so if you feel so inclined to help us out (we don't expect anyone to buy the whole thing themselves!) we would be so blessed!
12m-18m baby clothes are ALWAYS welcomed. Summer-fall clothing would be best.
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So basically Julien loves music especially drums, cars, tools, books and loud things we don't mind the loud toys so feel free!!!
We love second hand things because they are cheaper and sometimes better! So please feel free to shop on craigslist, or give us your hand me downs!
Julien will be so blessed by just a simple Birthday Card too, we love sentimental things :), so if you feel so inclined let me know and I'll send you our address!
UPDATE**
If you haven't gotten Julien anything yet, I want to add veggie tales dvds, or cds, and a CARS Seat (its a Julien size comfy chair or couch).
Lets see...Julien has 7 teeth now, He hasn't started saying MUCH but occasionally he slips Ima or Abba (mom and dad in Hebrew).
He is getting so big!
His 1st birthday is coming up and during our busy schedule Julien and I got together to talk about his birthday wish list!! Here are just a few items he would LOVE to have!
Bruin Drum of Instruments
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4107312
OR
*Little Tikes Tap-A-Tune drum
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2464963
--
Fisher-Price Laugh and Learn Learning Workbench
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3783164
OR
Lamaze My First Toolbox
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4209195
--
We will soon (hopefully) be purchasing a toddler bed for Julien. We could really use some Toddler bed rails such as these !
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4008512&prodFindSrc=search
We would also love one of these! For safety in the tub
Skip Hop Moby Bath Spout Cover
http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3611463
We also need a Toddler Car seat, so if you feel so inclined to help us out (we don't expect anyone to buy the whole thing themselves!) we would be so blessed!
12m-18m baby clothes are ALWAYS welcomed. Summer-fall clothing would be best.
--
So basically Julien loves music especially drums, cars, tools, books and loud things we don't mind the loud toys so feel free!!!
We love second hand things because they are cheaper and sometimes better! So please feel free to shop on craigslist, or give us your hand me downs!
Julien will be so blessed by just a simple Birthday Card too, we love sentimental things :), so if you feel so inclined let me know and I'll send you our address!
UPDATE**
If you haven't gotten Julien anything yet, I want to add veggie tales dvds, or cds, and a CARS Seat (its a Julien size comfy chair or couch).
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
We're on the move!!
Julien started crawling!
He is definitely on the move and keeping me BUSY! He is interested in every little thing on the floor, on the shelves you know regular baby stuff!
Just today he pulled him self up to the standing position and was holding on to me...then all the sudden he let go and was standing ALL by himself for like 15 seconds!! He kept doing that for like 10 minutes up and down up and down.
I can't believe he's getting so big!
Have I mentioned his first word is "hi!"? Time fliiiies when you have a baby and before you know it they're getting married!
While I'm watching Julien crawl around and grow right in front of me I can't help but think "My mom watched me crawl around like this.." and I know for her it seems just like Yesterday. What am I going to do when Julien gets older, what is going to be happening in the world, How are we going to all change and grow within this time.
God is in control of course but it's so crazy to think so much can and will happen and change within the next 10, 15, 20 years.
Oh how the time flies.
He is definitely on the move and keeping me BUSY! He is interested in every little thing on the floor, on the shelves you know regular baby stuff!
Just today he pulled him self up to the standing position and was holding on to me...then all the sudden he let go and was standing ALL by himself for like 15 seconds!! He kept doing that for like 10 minutes up and down up and down.
I can't believe he's getting so big!
Have I mentioned his first word is "hi!"? Time fliiiies when you have a baby and before you know it they're getting married!
While I'm watching Julien crawl around and grow right in front of me I can't help but think "My mom watched me crawl around like this.." and I know for her it seems just like Yesterday. What am I going to do when Julien gets older, what is going to be happening in the world, How are we going to all change and grow within this time.
God is in control of course but it's so crazy to think so much can and will happen and change within the next 10, 15, 20 years.
Oh how the time flies.
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